What is it like to
not feel? To be a spectator, possibly the only spectator, to the theatre of the
times? Water is drying up in the wells, plastic is piling up. Kids are planting
bombs between heady puffs of smoke. Kids, whose birthdays remind their mother
of her rape. Innocent animals are slaughtered so you can order a meal you can’t
finish.
People are out on
the streets demanding rights to right the wrongs. Rights for the displaced, rights
to free speech, rights to choose whom to love, rights to protest the denial of
rights to protest, rights to wear what they want, rights to offend, their
rights versus the rights of the others. The right versus the left. Whose right
is more right?
Every column inch
taken up, every street corner busy. The song of protest, the dance of
solidarity, the silence of rebellion, the walk of dissent. They speak up in
verse, they speak up in prose. Speak up for the gays, the jews, the
rationalists, the whistle-blowers.
Speak up.
They are loud.
They coo out of my music, they headline my newspapers. They stare at me from
movie posters and appeal to my conscience through my literature. They won’t let
me be till my voice rises with theirs. But it won’t. Why won’t it? Do I not
have a heart? Does it not bleed?
Truth is, it doesn’t.
I worry about the rising pile of dishes in the sink. I fret over a leaking pipe
and a malfunctioning motor. The yard is unkempt and the bike is covered in
dust. If their trays aren’t refilled, the cats will go hungry and if the bills
aren’t paid today, my house will go dark.
I
don’t run long distances, I don’t meditate, I don’t bake cupcakes and I don’t
click sepia-tinged pictures. If you looked me up on Twitter, you would find
that I am not even a writer. But I am happy to be alive. I wake up and smile,
knowing that the sun is out. I don’t care about forced conversions as much as I
care to know if my cricketing God indeed clicked a selfie. I am not half as
outraged by the RSS or the ISIS as I am by the Silk Board traffic that won’t
let me get home. Because I need to get home and catch up on today's Facebook outrage. You see, I am the guy without a cause.
All those causes up on the store shelves and yet, I'm not picking any.